Postpartum depression/anxiety

I’m a new mom dealing with this sick icky feeling that it has taken over mylife. It got to the point to where I didnt want to get out of bed, my sons whines and cries would annoy, frustrate, break me down, I started to feel not wanting to care for him, or at least I felt that I wasnt good enough to care for him. Everyday is a struggle, it’s hard to do simple tasks like, do laundry, make dinner, and take a shower. I was losing myself, I wasnt caring for myself so how could I ever take care of my son? I had the one support system I needed MOST in my life which is my sons father, he doesn’t support me. He doesnt understand. He told me I’m not mentally stable, I’m a half ass mom, when in reality HE is the reason I hit this depression. He said to me and I will never forget and I quote.. “you’re using this postpartum depression for everything, that’s your own personal problem” like how fu*ked up is that?!